stepping stone

my next "big step" in life.. form6! Whooo... till now, i've not heard of one who wants to do F6 willingly.. most of my peers are packing,some have already gone, ready to go head on with the world out there.. Good results, apply for scholarship and out they go.. not so good result, parents burn a hole in their pocket and, out they go..(its for a good cause though). bummed into some who asks, WHY F6?? its like the most ridiculous idea they've ever heard. I've done my reasoning, and i personally think its best for me to stay on home a little while longer..

First, i've not been much of a "good" boy for the last past years.. where u think dad and mum got their white hair and wrinkles from?haha.. and so, i think its time to redeem myself.. yes, i've been forgiven. but as Zacchaeus gave half his possession to the poor, i believe that repentance should come along side with actions. gonna stay home and try to be of help to my parents. Plus, once i go away to study, i'll be most probably gone for good.. am i ready to look back next time and tell myself i've spent enough time with my family? staying home 2 years more will buy me time..

Second. Am i ready to leave house and be independent? the million dollar quest. will i get "sesat-ed" if i leave home? i think i am, but at the same time, its too much a risk to take. staying back for F6 will give me time to mature a little bit more. plus, mum and dad will be able to knock my head once in awhile if i get off track.

Third. i'm gonna run for northern district comm..i feel its a place where God wants me to serve..if i go away to study, i dont think i'll be residing in the north.. plus, i have not been a good testimony to Christ in school..redemption time.. and MYF, yeah..i can still help out there plus serve in church..

i've got more in my mind, but i'll stop here.. someone did say to me, perhaps its because i'm afraid to leave my comfort zone..hmmm...mayb. but whatever it is, i'll have to leave in 2 years time.. everyone says F6 is hard.. am i up for it? i'll find out pretty soon.. God be with me:) Cheers!