the blue spot

i have found it! the blue spot of clear sky in the dark gloomy sky.. things are starting to brighten itself..maturity and brains are sinking in into my thick skull.. in simpler terms, i have found the meaning to live.. or rather a clearer perspective.. sounds good?? yeah..i think so.. but.. i believe that everything has it good and bad..

because change is change, every other things has to be changed to suit the change.. complicated huh.. one simple example.. friends.. now that i'm a "little" different, i dont think and function like how i used to anymore.. i begin to see what and who i have been with all these while.. makes me go."gosh! i dint know".. for once in my years of living, i am out of trouble! haha.. for years, every problem or "deep shit" my friends get into, u will c me there.. but this year, neh.. think i'll b the "good guy" for a while.. it's nice to see and realise that i am changing for the better..but its sad to know i cant bring my friends along with me..

good friends are scarce--period..lesson of the year..most ppl are just what i call "passing friend"..i've been in the blur for years, and its high time i rejudge the ppl i am with.. whatever it is, i'm grateful i have the best friend ever looking after me..one who has gave me grace and the holy spirit..

daddy and mummy, thank u 4 praying and not giving up on me..:)