relfection
Due to boredom, i decided to read back my little half-done dairy in 2007..i think.. little did i know, it was that day i had to pray for repentance for my past actions..
To re-read my diary, it feels like it was in another life time..a person so foreign to me..or rather a concentrated dark black shadow of myself..things i felt in the pass, things i did..brought back dark memories to me..things i will want to forget..
After u was done reading, damn..i cant believe i have survived through those things..those days where everything seemed so so gloomy.. i could feel the rage and depression i was in.. never in one day of those months was there a happy joyful entry..and yet, i survived till today..well and happy..one pat on the back for me..:)
When reading, i saw glimpses of people who actually cared for me, who my real friends were, and who were "passing-friends".. so sad to know i trusted the wrong people and hurt all the nice people in my way.. worst part of the diary was.. "where are you god? don you care about me?" it pierced me so painfully i went straight into prayer.. He was gracious to me all the time.. i was just blinded by all the rage in myself..
Imagine that..i wasted one whole year destroying myself.. but..i think i have caught up a little bit..much more to work on though..lessons learnt, mistakes done, experiences obtained.. time to move on.. as people say, yesterday was history, tomorrow a mystery..today, a gift..:)
posted by prorogue @ 10:57 PM
4 Comments
4 Comments:
good thinking :) *pat pat* you've come a long way, from the timmy i used to know since we were tiny tots running about. you were one angry boy. LOL :P but all glory to God, you've turned out to be a great guy! take the good, throw the bad. miss you much.
1 pharse, God has faith in you. People always say that we must have faith in God, stuff like that, we miss the point where God also has faith in us. Therefore He did let the old tim to stray away, but instead He was behind you, Jesus interceding for you and I believe you like the result you're seeing in yourself right now. Continue on the race with perseverence, for reward will be stored up in heaven, waiting for you. God bless!
I hope that doesn't go into my diary, if it's a dairy at all, yeah, good job.
glad you're doing better in life. one thing i noticed from you is that you're more optimistic now. we've all come a long way. what makes us different is whether we choose to run the extra mile. the actions we take and the consequences we must face. remember? this time it's in a good way! haha. miss ya
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